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Cynthia
[sin • thee • uh]
noun
1. Artemis
2. The moon personified as a goddess

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Revamping Unproductivity

after a week of not doing anything, i am already annoyed, irritated, and insanely bored. to keep myself busy and to attempt being productive, i have came up with a list of goals & tasks for the summer.

IMPROVING SKILLS—

1. continue learning HTML. hopefully i will be able to design the website my daddy always wanted by the end of summer.

2. review & practice Spanish. i want that A in Spanish 4 next semester.

3. practice piano everyday. memorize a few songs that i can play whenever i want/need to.

HEALTH & BODY—

1. run, swim, & exercise at home. aiming to lose at least 5 lbs by the end of summer.

2. stop eating so much, especially sweets. eat less meat & carbs, and more fruits & veggies. i want my skin to clear up by the end of summer.

3. fix sleeping schedule! go to bed before 2am & wake up before noon -____-“

EXTRACURRICULARS—

1. plan out CASA Big & Little program and its tentative events.

2. come up with potential strolls for SYZ.

3. secure an internship and/or job for next school year. 

JUST FOR FUN—

1. read the books that i have never been opened yet and are just sitting on the bookshelf.

2. watch some good Asian dramas.

3. learn to cook some dishes from mommy.

4. get a decent tan by the end of summer.



alright, so these should keep my summer busy & interesting enough, along with some weekly gatherings with friends, parents, & family friends.

YAY PRODUCTIVE SUMMER… here we go! :D

Goodbye My Bittersweet Teenage Years…

stepping into the decade where people find stable jobs, live independently, pay rent & bills, get married, settle down, & even start their own families…



scary isn’t it?



there are a couple of things i want to accomplish within the next year, or the next few years… however long they might take me:

- learn more about myself. get to know myself better. focus on myself.
i am the most important person in my life. if i can’t even find myself & know who i am, how am i suppose to accomplish any of the things i mentioned above?

- love myself. depend on myself. realize my self-worth.
i need to treat myself with the respect that i deserve. if i don’t even love myself, who will? and if i can’t even love myself, how am i suppose to love someone else the right way? i can’t depend on a relationship, or anyone, to find myself. that’s not fair for the person, and it won’t lead to a healthy relationship. 

- be appreciative. be satisfied. be happy.
i have grown enough to realize that we create our own happiness. happiness doesn’t come from others, but from ourselves. the way we think, the way we look at things & situations… and befriend loneliness. loneliness should be our best friend in the world. it’s our most loyal companion. learn to live with loneliness in life, because sometimes that’s all you got.

- forgive. but don’t forget.
everyone makes mistakes. i make mistakes.. all the time. people we love makes mistakes, but that doesn’t mean they don’t deserve our love anymore. in the process of learning, mistakes are inevitable. but just because someone made a mistake, doesn’t mean they don’t deserve a second chance.. it might be painful to watch someone we love make mistakes, and sometimes these mistakes hurt us. but don’t we all wish to see the ones we love learn & grow? don’t we want them to be better beings? trials & errors teach the best lessons.

- stay ambitious. give it all i got to reach the goals. but also be able to face reality & know when to let go.
face the cold, hard truth. the painful truth is always better than the comforting lies. sometimes, you just need to trust that life will take you where you should be. you can’t always get what you want, because sometimes what you want might not be what you deserve, for better or for worse.. but it never hurts to push yourself to your limit. what’s meant to be, will eventually be.



i hope my life will go in the right direction. i hope i make smart decisions & choices. but, more than anything… i hope i get to live my life to the fullest, take chances, make mistakes, learn from them, grow & mature into who i am meant to be, and i hope i never, ever regret anything in my life.

… here’s to the end of my teenage years, and the beginning of the rest of my life <3